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Just a quick Update..I am closing this journal..If anyone has me listed as a friend please email me for my new journal username..Moonliteshadow12@aol.com....
Samantha
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[29 Aug 2004|07:23pm] |
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Im having computer problems right now..for some reason my computer completely shut down and i cant get online. as soon as its fixed ill be back online..til then ill miss you all:)
love,
samantha
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[27 Aug 2004|02:55am] |
Pogus [12:15 AM]: hey
MoonliteShadow12 [12:16 AM]: how are u?
Pogus [12:17 AM]: good u
MoonliteShadow12 [12:17 AM]: im good
MoonliteShadow12 [12:17 AM]: so, are u ready for your show tomarrow?
Pogus [12:18 AM]: saturday
Pogus [12:18 AM]: waut the fair
Pogus [12:18 AM]: wait
MoonliteShadow12 [12:19 AM]: ya
MoonliteShadow12 [12:19 AM]: the fair..lol
MoonliteShadow12 [12:19 AM]: thats tomarrow at 8 right?
Pogus [12:19 AM]: aww i thought i told you lol
MoonliteShadow12 [12:19 AM]: told me what?
MoonliteShadow12 [12:19 AM]: i havent talked to you in a couple weeks..lol
Pogus [12:19 AM]: it got moved to thursday at 530 pm
Pogus [12:19 AM]: sorry
Pogus [12:20 AM]: :-(
MoonliteShadow12 [12:20 AM]: i missed it??????
MoonliteShadow12 [12:20 AM]: no fair
MoonliteShadow12 [12:20 AM]: :(
Pogus [12:20 AM]: no next thursday
MoonliteShadow12 [12:21 AM]: oh..ok
MoonliteShadow12 [12:21 AM]: cool
MoonliteShadow12 [12:21 AM]: so, they changed it again?...its on the 2nd now?
Pogus [12:21 AM]: yeah
MoonliteShadow12 [12:22 AM]: oh..what time
Pogus[12:22 AM]: 530 pm
MoonliteShadow12 [12:23 AM]: cool..
MoonliteShadow12 [12:23 AM]: ill be there
Pogus [12:23 AM]: sweet
MoonliteShadow12 [12:23 AM]: so, u still gonna get me a guitar pick?
Pogus [12:24 AM]: yrs
MoonliteShadow12 [12:24 AM]: cool:)
MoonliteShadow12 [12:24 AM]: im gonna bring my poster and have u sign it
MoonliteShadow12 [12:24 AM]: k
Pogus [12:24 AM]: lol
MoonliteShadow12 [12:24 AM]: and my daughter will be there and i want a pick with you and my daughter..and my husband will be there too
Pogus [12:24 AM]: mk
Pogus [12:25 AM]: sweeet
MoonliteShadow12 [12:25 AM]: yup:)
MoonliteShadow12 [12:25 AM]: so, how u gonna know its me?..lol..i might be too shy to just come up to you..i might have my friend rovonia do it for me..lol
Pogus [12:25 AM]: ok lol
MoonliteShadow12 [12:26 AM]: so,how u gonna know its me?:)
Pogus [12:26 AM]: not sure
MoonliteShadow12 [12:26 AM]: umm...
MoonliteShadow12 [12:26 AM]: hmm..
MoonliteShadow12 [12:27 AM]: i will waer a cow suit..lol..nah, playen
MoonliteShadow12 [12:27 AM]: wear*
MoonliteShadow12 [12:27 AM]: i dont know what ill wear
MoonliteShadow12 [12:28 AM]: but i have red hair..and im short and my daughter will be with me and my husband..so ill probably come up to you and say hi..im samantha
Pogus [12:28 AM]: k
MoonliteShadow12 [12:28 AM]: brb
MoonliteShadow12 [12:46 AM]: im back
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[25 Aug 2004|10:40pm] |
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Wednesday, August 25, 2004 9:58:57 PM
Well, Where do I start?Last night my mom went to the hospital at like 10:30pm in an ambulance. They run a million tests on her. We were there til 8:30am..I was up from 1:30pm yesterday and had no sleep at all..Just coffeee.(Gotta love coffee..LOL)As, we are there some of the tests come back saying that her liver is completely gone, shes bleeding internally and they cant find exactly where its coming from, and shes lost a lot of blood abd needs a blood transfusion. They also said that when she sleeps she doesnt have enough oxygen going to her brain and makes her breath bad and stay sleeping for a long time. So, Im pacing back and forth the whole night worring about my mom while shes sleeping away. I kept bugging everyone about the tests and stuff. So, about 6:30am my mom wakes up and starts saying she wants to go home. I told her she cant,because they are running tests. About 9:30am my mom gets up and puts her clothes on and gets her dicharge papers to sign so she can go home. The doctor said "I should arrest you, for putting yourself in danger and for making your daughter take care of you." The doctor was so mad at my mom for leaving. The doctor also said "That if you leave, you could bleed more and bleed to death overnight and be dead by tomarrow morning." By, then I took off. Robert and I walked from 29th then L street to old sac on 3rd street.. Then over the bridge into W.Sac and got picked up by Billy. We walked about 30 blocks today. I was so upset and I still am. I cant even imagine waking up tomarrow and shes dead. Its not fair to me. It hurts me so bad.I dont know whether to be mad at her or to be sad. I have so many mixed emotions.
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[23 Aug 2004|02:24am] |
I have a favor to ask everyone...
I collect the state quarters for my daughter and Im missing Texas, Iowa,Michigan,and Florida.... Can anyone help me by sending those to me?..Comment for my address.. Thanx so much I appreciate it..
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[21 Aug 2004|08:25pm] |
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Saturday, August 21, 2004 8:08:48 PM
Well, Where do I begin?...Last night was horrible. My mom started bleeding real bad and it was like she was hemoraging. So, I was talking to Rovonia online and I was just telling her that my mom was bleeding real bad. I didnt know John was there. So, She tells me to get offline cause John wants me to call him right now. So, I did and John says basically "I went through this with my mom and I dont want you to do the same, Im coming over."So, he hung up on me and then he and Rovonia shows up at 3:00am..John tries to talk my mom into going to the hospital and she kept telling them to "take care of samantha" so, john got mad and started leaving. I told john to call from his cell phone to the ambulance. They come here and my mom is pissed and starts giving them a hard time. They wouldnt take her becuase she didnt wanna go. So, It was awaste of time and she only didnt go because she was proving that if she didnt want to, she dont have to.So, Rovonia got upset and started crying, John was starting to and Its like how can I help her when she dont want any help. Robert says we need out of here cause when she dies it will be too hard for me to come back here. He said it was hard for him to go back home when his mom died. So, We are planning on moving before she dies so it's not so hard for me. I dont know what to do anymore. My mom told the fireman that she wants to die at home and she dont wanna be at the hospital. She just dont know its tearuing me apart. The more I tell her, the more its harder on me because she dont care. Im her only daughter.If she goes to the hospital, I have to be the one to pull the plug and thats gonna be so hard for me. She just dont wanna wake up one day or one afternoon and my mom is lying there dead and Bilyy didnt do anyhting about it. Its like she can die at any moment and at one second my life can change. I have so much stuff I have to do,..She wants me to pack her stuff up, I have to take my uncle tommy stuff(he dided 7 years ago) and all my stuff,Roberts,and Elizabeths it's so much for me to deal with. Why is she being so stubborn and selffish. It's not fair.......
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[21 Aug 2004|05:01am] |
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[18 Aug 2004|09:52pm] |
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Wednesday, August 18, 2004 9:39:27 PM
Today is Elizabeths 7 month birthday..lOL..and also my mom and my dads 22nd anniversary if they wouldve stayed married..I kinda wished they would get back together before she dies. I know they still love each other. Rovonia and John came over tonight and stayed for awhile. That was cool.She brought me some cd's..Kenny Chesney0When the sun goes down, Elvis' Greatest Hits for Robert,and Sarah Mclaughlin and Lisa Marie Presley for my moms b-day.Very nice:) My mom woke up to say hi to everyone and when she woke up her eyes and lips and her whole body was swollen. She wont go to the hospital. Rovoina said she looked real bad and she was sad. Its real hard to deal with this and I know I sound like a broken record over and ver saying its so hard but it really is hard dealing with the fact that your mom is dying and is real sick..So, even Rovonia noticed how sick she looked. Robert made chicken wings tonight..MMMmmm so good..LOL..I love those when he makes them. It was nice having John and Ro here. Made me happy. hey need to come over more..LOL..We havent had company in such a long time..LOL...I talked to my dad tonight and he said that he is senidng tomarrow a gift for me,robert,and elizabeth(3 seperate gifts) and 50.00. Just for our wedding present. Cool!I cant wait. He always sends the best gifts..LOL>I remember when I was little and the portable cd players were like over 100.00 dollars. He made sure he went out and bought me one and a couple cd's I wanted. Then when it was x-mas and my birthday he bought the best barbies and barbies cars,houses,boats,mobile home..everyhting..LOL..He sent me last year a lite blue cd player that said Angel on it. I saw it at Target and it was like 69.99 and I told him I wanted one and he surprsed me out of no where and sent it..LOL.Since I was little Ive always loved angels and faerins and unicorns. So, every holiday including Valentines and Halloween he would send me an angel,unicorn, or faerie card and like 3 packs of stickers.I used to collect stickers..Well, I still do but not as much. I still have most of my cards from him. So, I kinda wonder what he's sending this time..LOL..Well, I guess ill end here and say night night..LOL..I just hope my mo will get better and somehow stop pushing me away. For the last week shes been talking to me and hugging me a lot. So, I think shes not tryen to push me away anymore..Love ya all,
Samantha
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[17 Aug 2004|10:09pm] |
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Well, I wanted to buy my mom dinner and I gave the money to Billy. Well he sys he had no money so I didnt mind. He comes back and throws my money on the table and says"There you didnt have to pay for nothing" I said "What my momeys not good enough to buy my mom dinner" He said "I dont need your money and neither does she".. My mom said Billy thats not right. I started calling him names and he told me to shut up. My mom said you dont treat her that way..Then my mom said "Take your daughter upstairs, you dont want her to be upset and hear all this" and I said " Dont you care if your daughter is upset over this?" No wonder why every time Billy trys to talk to Elizabeth or even holds her she starts screaming. She knows how he treats me. Its not right. So, Im pissed off and hurt a little because I wanted to buy my mom dinner and he just had to be a jerk and not let me..I hate him!!
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[17 Aug 2004|04:55pm] |
Tuesday, August 17, 2004 4:48:17 PM
Ok. I thought I would give a little update..I dont feel good today. I cryed last night cause I was depressed about my mom dying.So, I was hella cryen and I go downstairs and I told my mom I needed a ride to AmPM to get some depression food.NACHO'S...LOL>>...So, I went at 2:30am and it was cold..LOL...Ive been so depressed Im starting to have wierd dreams of me and Robert divorcing and getting back together and in all of them JOhn seems to be in it somehow making us fight. Wierd.Huh? Well, Ill update later.. Im tired and I dont feel good..
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[17 Aug 2004|01:14am] |
You are the Empress card. The Empress is the
archetype of the Mother. She creates and
nurtures life. She represents the abundance of
Mother Earth. The Empress is capable of using
nature in a productive way. She espouses art
for art's sake. Her planet is Venus, and she
embodies love of beauty and a strong value
system. Here is also found initial sensation.
This is the first really physical experience of
the world that The Fool has entered. The
Empress has a rich understanding of the world
based on her five senses. In a reading, The
Empress represents pregnancy, actual or
metaphorical. She indicates an act of creation
and a sensual experience of beauty. The Empress
is a nurturing force that wishes to see the
product of her experiences reach the next stage
of development. Image from A Photographic Tarot
http://www.bluewitch.com/healingtarot/healtar.htm
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[16 Aug 2004|12:50am] |
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Im in one of those moods again. I just got done talking to my mom.She wants me to start packing up her stuff for when the time comes when she dies that it's easier to walk away and move out. If I don't move out of here Billy will have a new gf, and she will sleep in my my mom's bed,with her blankets and pillows and I can't wake up everyday and see some new girl and not my mom. Its not fair that she has to die..Im hella crying. I mean shes getting so worse that its so sad to sit and watch your mom get worse every day. Its like Im afraid to wake up everyday cause one day Im gonna wake up and shes gonna be dead or not here.Im not ready for her to die. I still need her help on raising my daughter, I need help on guidence in life, I need help with advice. I don;t care about her bitching or meanness she does to me, I just want my mom to LIVE!!! Is that too much to ask???...I gotta go. Im hella cryen theres tears running down my face. Everythings getting blurry and I need to go.
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Im Tired so Im going to bed for the night. So, To all my lovely friends and penpals Good night and Sweet dreams!!!LOve you all:)
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S-Shortie, Smash Mouth
A- Aerosmith
M-Maroon 5
A-AFI
N-New Found Glory
T- The Used
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A-Ashlee Simpson
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| moonliteangel12's LJ stalker is xwannabapopstrx! | | xwannabapopstrx is stalking you because they heard you are awesome in bed, and they want to find out. They are also getting with your significant other! |
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[11 Aug 2004|03:44pm] |
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Another favor please,
Does anyone have the Hambuglar bear from mcdonalds? hes the white and black striped one. I have the green french fry bear for trade.Let me know.
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[11 Aug 2004|12:40pm] |
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Hey,
Everyone do me a favor please. Go and look at my new layout. Tell me what you think. It would do me a big favor. I did it myself but I can't get the pic any longer for some reason. Any advice? Well, let me know..Ill update later
Samantha
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